Holding Cells Aren’t Helping

This is the tale of my stay at the Lawrence Memorial Med 6 Psychiatric Unit. It outlines how poor care is given even when the stay is voluntary.

5.5 Grams of Freedom

I have had a life-long relationship with psychedelics. I began using dextromethorphan (DXM), a sigma agonist that is available OTC, when I was 15. I began using it after severe domestic …

The Water’s Rising Past My Eyes

This piece was written while inducing a hypomanic state. I had a lot of scrambled energy that needed to come out and this poem is the product of the current state of my psyche. Lucky I have a new therapist.

Forgive me for my faults (because I can’t)

Forgive me for my faults is a new piece written on 9/26/19 that was sparked as an outlet to an episode of Borderline Personality Disorder. It’s often common for people with personality disorder to deal with false thoughts that are programmed into them.

Solone

Ive never felt like I’m
So alone
Was I meant to be
Solo
I cant control

Future Forward

All the memory
I ever had to waste
I made an enemy
Out of nothing more than haste
Pushing and pushing
Pushing future forward

Physcosomatic Erratic.

Waste away – the rot and decay
Takes you out to play
Make me one with
Make me done with
The evil plague you put inside.

DreamStress

What have we made here
In the sky’s falling distress
Oh what a mess – Oh what a mess
To my knees, I confess