Christ of Pain

Christ of Pain

Webs of shadow
Tangle my broken dreams
Like unraveled intention
The plan has gone so wrong

Where where you?
When I was
Strung up
Cut up
And bleeding from regret
There was so much darkness
Choking
Suffocating
And consuming me

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Drowning in Dusk

Drowning in Dusk

Where has the feeling gone?
Oh sun – Why do you hide from me?
The purest of flowers never grow
When the clouds cant provide
Don’t take my love from my life

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April’s Audioblog [Free]

You have no idea how long it took me to find this audio player. You would think I have a computer science background or something.

I dont usually do this…But this is the first half of my pre-show from Runescape Weekly. It turned out to be very intimate because it was a monolog due to my cohost being late. I ended up covering how I feel about my shortcomings due to my mental health and the channel trending downwards. Some personal insight into how medications effect work life and every day life and more. I also offer a glimpse of hope into how I could change the show…

Challenge Me Softly

Mix another drink
Clear my mind – I need to think
Stop the shakes so I can hold this pen to ink
My paper legibly
Said I’d be
Sober last Tuesday

But I’m dying in this rotting capsule
Flat out consuming my ticket to this funeral
Where I’m the star
And your my RSVP
Don’t you hate me
Just because I failed to be

Cause cant you see
Illness starts and ends with me
And Reality?
Didn’t give two fucks for me
So I spit it out and made a shell to be

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Solone

Ive never felt like I’m
So alone
Was I meant to be
Solo
I cant control

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Future Forward

All the memory
I ever had to waste
I made an enemy
Out of nothing more than haste
Pushing and pushing
Pushing future forward

So I could say goodbye
To the past hell
I want to press fast forward
To kill the past hard
And make something worthy out of this…

I am an ending
With an empty audience
I was just too much to witness
Left to feel worthless

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Physcosomatic Erratic.

Waste away – the rot and decay
Takes you out to play
Make me one with
Make me done with
The evil plague you put inside.

I am a circus act
Of heart attacks
Pick me up,
Put me back together

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DreamStress

What have we made here
In the sky’s falling distress
Oh what a mess – Oh what a mess
To my knees, I confess

There is so much more
Than we could ever take away
From the second-chance-giving
Opened-armed-willing
God of Karma

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