Holding Cells Aren’t Helping

This is the tale of my stay at the Lawrence Memorial Med 6 Psychiatric Unit. It outlines how poor care is given even when the stay is voluntary.

Monthly Me: August

Content Warning: Medication problems, social stigma, suicide, and dementia are shared in this episode.

Changing Veins and Lanes

This cursed life is just a ploy A simple toy… Employed by misery to murder joy I try to fight the void… But my will, long destroyed I wish to see …

The Artifact

I wanna live in my dreams Rip between the seams The people in my mind are more coherent it seems To be… Reality is nothing to me Jokingly – Brush aside …

Psychiatric Hospital

Holding Cells Aren’t Helping

This is the tale of my stay at the Lawrence Memorial Med 6 Psychiatric Unit. It outlines how poor care is given even when the stay is voluntary.

Heart Balloon

You and me Turns to We

In love with impossibilities
Like kissing fire on the lips
My desire wants to take my life
And in the morning I have to come to grips

Hallucination of Friendships

Taking medication
Like a precaution
To avoid the flood
Of memories
That overrun my mind
With sad ideas
And thoughts of you
Why do you like to invade me?

Creating an Article

Creating an Article

I never learned to home row type. I peck furiously at about 75 WPM. My index, middle and ring fingers do the heavy lifting; My thumbs reinforce with spaces. Oh yes, the mighty pinky! I haven’t forgotten you…Shifting in the shadows bringing capitalization to my words when needed. This non-traditional typing style may lead to faster fatigue or increased error intake. The truth is I taught myself how to type before I was in school so the habits were inlaid too young. That was a big deal in the 90s. I might be one of the last 75+ WPM key peckers! Who knows…

Dementia Project

Walking Blindly Through History

Below is a sneak peek of this content! 04/03/19 was the likely walk date The audio opens up with gram confused about a college fund she made long agoThey were originally …

drawing blood

Drawing Blood

And as the sensation fades away
I cant deny it,
You’ve infected my heart –
I cant describe it

Christ of Pain

Christ of Pain

Webs of shadow
Tangle my broken dreams
Like unraveled intention
The plan has gone so wrong

Drowning in Dusk

Drowning in Dusk

Where has the feeling gone?
Oh, sun – Why do you hide from me?
The purest of flowers never grow
When the clouds cant provide
Don’t take my love from my life

April’s Audioblog [Free]

I don’t usually do this…But this is the first half of my pre-show from Runescape Weekly. It turned out to be very intimate because it was a monolog due to my cohost being late. I ended up covering how I feel about my shortcomings due to my mental health and the channel trending downwards. Some personal insight into how medications effect work life and everyday life and more. I also offer a glimpse of hope into how I could change the show…

The “Hellening”

My Aunt Helen is here from Seattle and with her comes a whirlwind of extremely potent energy. For the good and the bad. Find out how I narrowly avoid a major family fight and end up making some of the most enjoyable memories on Drumlin Farm with Gram and Aunt Helen. [10 UHD Pictures]