I don’t usually do this…But this is the first half of my pre-show from Runescape Weekly. It turned out to be very intimate because it was a monolog due to my cohost being late. I ended up covering how I feel about my shortcomings due to my mental health and the channel trending downwards. Some personal insight into how medications effect work life and everyday life and more. I also offer a glimpse of hope into how I could change the show…
Forgive me for my faults is a new piece written on 9/26/19 that was sparked as an outlet to an episode of Borderline Personality Disorder. It’s often common for people with personality disorder to deal with false thoughts that are programmed into them.
My Aunt Helen is here from Seattle and with her comes a whirlwind of extremely potent energy. For the good and the bad. Find out how I narrowly avoid a major family fight and end up making some of the most enjoyable memories on Drumlin Farm with Gram and Aunt Helen. [10 UHD Pictures]
Mix another drink
Clear my mind – I need to think
Stop the shakes so I can hold this pen to ink
My paper legibly
Said I’d be
Sober last Tuesday
All the memory
I ever had to waste
I made an enemy
Out of nothing more than haste
Pushing and pushing
Pushing future forward
Waste away – the rot and decay
Takes you out to play
Make me one with
Make me done with
The evil plague you put inside.
What have we made here
In the sky’s falling distress
Oh what a mess – Oh what a mess
To my knees, I confess
Not because they actually were sad, or bad, or even had by we happenstance came across misfortune: She simply sours sentiment.
Due to my mistrust of the medical system I have an emergency 12 day supply tucked away. It’s the wrong dose and on the verge of expiring…
All I could do was analyze the future and what was to be. I was stuck in a constant loop. No more. Now I am just flowing forward.