I wanna live in my dreams Rip between the seams The people in my mind are more coherent it seems To be… Reality is nothing to me Jokingly – Brush aside …
Forgive me for my faults is a new piece written on 9/26/19 that was sparked as an outlet to an episode of Borderline Personality Disorder. It’s often common for people with personality disorder to deal with false thoughts that are programmed into them.
Since being on Topamax writing anything original has been near impossible. This is the first original piece I have written since then. It is about BPD and my struggles of identifying the subtle differences of it from bipolar inside of myself.
A short poem about depersonalization. It also speaks to self-hate as well as attempting to over come that by re-uniting with the self.
This poem is takes dark energy of codependency and drives it to a point of psychosis.
There is something inside you
What was that behind you?
Cant, you keep track of time?
They are coming to find you…
Some air outside will make you feel fine…
It’s freezing… you’re burning!
I need to find a place to hide…
There was nothing I could have wished for
But a chance to meet your gaze
That would of satiated
My burning pain
Nothing I could have wished for
Could end this pain
Bereave her with my lovely
Of demonic desire
And set her heart on fire
With the darkest desire
To join me in the mire
I wish that this pain would vacate
And I wish these drugs would placate
I just want to take a dive
And be down
I want to be down…
Haunting whispers and
Echo through the seams
Taking – consuming
Altering the room and
Tearing me apart